remember jungle fish?

187

2012-02-10T17:57:00.001+11:00

Haven't posted properly in a while, but yeah. Started watching Midas, which is pretty good actually. 3 of the 4 main actors/actresses are people I like - Jang Hyuk, Lee Min Jung and No Min Woo, so yeah. Not that I only watch for the actors/actresses but I admit that's what makes me even think about watching something.

Well, I tried to watch this drama a while ago, I downloaded 2 episodes last year, but it was really boring at the start, about like money, finance, market... all that shit.. that I will be learning about this year.. hahah but yeah, it's getting interesting now.

And I've been watching DH2 and SUFBB, but they've only got 4 episode out so far, so I've got to wait each week. Sigh. I don't like waiting, and when I'm waiting, each week seems to go by so fast, only about 2 weeks left.

There's so much to do, and I don't want to do it. I mean, you all probably know how retarded I am and how I'm lazy and scared of everything, and find everything troublesome. Well yeah, a lot of troublesome things are ahead.

I need to get my Ls LOL.. kind of embarrassing I guess but I never got around to getting my Ls.. but I think I'm gonna have to get them soon, and I need to find a job (BIGGEST SIGH). I've never had a job before, and apparently people are finding it hard to find a job so.. damn hahah. I wrote up a bit of my resume this morning but it's pretty shit. And I have no referees too.. I guess I will use Yinnie's school email to email a couple of teachers from high school.. troublesome.

Need to get my uni books too, dunno how to do that, well it's on the portal thing, but I'm confused about when it says 'Australia Post' whether it will post to your door.. LOL does anyone know? Anyway, yeah.

Realised I accidentally closed my laptop whilst I was downloading ep5 of Midas this morning, damn.

Heaven - Ailee

2012-02-09T10:35:00.003+11:00

Heaven - Ailee

I don't think any of you know how much I've been anticipating Ailee's debut. It was last year that I saw her on 'Singer and Trainee' with Wheesung and since then, I've been excited and waiting for her debut. Her voice is amazing and powerful and it's really rich unlike a lot of idols these days.

I'm really glad Ailee is debuting as a solo artist because it allows her to showcase her own voice by herself and now overshadow others or anything like that. Can't wait to see more from her ^^

남자답게 - Fly To The Sky

2012-02-07T15:52:00.002+11:00

Like a Man - Fly To The Sky

Fly To The Sky was actually one of the first Korean groups I listened to, and this was back in like '06 or '07 hahah, I liked Sea of Love and Missing You. But yeah, I didn't really listen to them religiously or anything, so I don't really know many of their songs, but they seem lovely and Hwanhee's voice is so low and deep, it's really nice hahah.

186

2012-02-05T22:31:00.002+11:00

It was Xian's pyjama party yesterday. It was fun. Played with knives. Talked inside. Played Band Hero. Talked outside. Were freaked out by creepy noises. Played 'I've never'. Ate lasagne. Toasted marshmallows. Went inside. Slept at a time after the sun rose.

185

2012-02-04T18:41:00.002+11:00

Okay, I finished watching the last 2 episodes of Flower Boy Ramyun Shop. The ending was expected, and I guess during the last 2 episodes I finally accepted the ending and was less frustrated with the main character.

When I finished, I was like: hmm, what should I do? So I decided to start another drama LOL It's called 'Shut Up Flower Boy Band. Apparently: 'Shut Up Flower Boy Band is the second project of tvN's Oh! Boy series. This drama series features star-studded line ups of flower boy leading men. The previous entry in this series is Flower Boy Ramyun Shop.

So yeah, I decided to watch it, only the first 2 episodes are out at the moment and I watched them both. I recognised about 3 of the actors on wikid-addicts cast list, and was quite excited. I ended up loving Lee Min Ki (who was on RM, I liked him then) BUT THEN HE DIES IN THE SECOND EPISODE, WHAT IS THIS?

I was wondering why he was near the end of the cast list when he seemed to be a main character throughout the first 2 episodes.. now I know why :( I was actually really upset, because well, I was really into the drama because of him.. sigh, oh well, at least Sung Joon (SangHee in Lie to Me) is in it. He's the main character so that'll be okay. But I'm still sad Min Ki's character died :(

Eye Candy.

184

2012-02-03T23:04:00.000+11:00

As you all know, I'm a very emotional person. I get angry really easily, happy really easily, you could call it mood swings, but it's not like that. Like, when I'm watching drama, I get attached to the drama REALLY easily, like.. REALLY. I start shouting at the computer screen and clenching my fists when something stupid or frustrating happens. I smile brightly and wave my fists in the air when something good happens.

This isn't just with dramas either. Sometimes I call the characters in movies stupid, and I kind of have a habit of giving a commentary during movies, mostly consisting of "what the hell?" "O.M.G. IS HE/SHE STUPID?!" But I try to control myself as much as I can hahah.

This drama at the moment is REALLY frustrating. You see, the girl is DUMB AS ASODFINADSINF. CLEARLY the tall guy (Choi Kang Hyuk aka Column aka President Choi) IS AWESOME. He's tall, good looking, cute, nice, gentle, UNLIKE THAT FKING Cha Chi Soo, who is a SNOBBY, conceited, crazy douchebag. I don't get why the girl has to even THINK. If someone like Column called me his wife, I'd go with it. How can you seriously like someone like Cha Chi Soo.

Okay, IT'S SO OBVIOUSLY SHE LIKES CHI SOO, AND SHE SHOULD JUST FKING GET WITH HIM ALREADY AND STOP HURTING COLUMN'S FEELINGS ;A;

Okay, I was going to blog about something else, but I cbf now.

183

2012-02-02T20:02:00.000+11:00

I'm currently watching 'Flower Boy Ramyun Shop' hahah. It's a Korean drama, and.. well you all probably know I'm a Korean-drama fanatic, watched them all through my VCE LOL up until exam times. Well I finished Obstetrics and Gynecology a few days ago, and didn't have anything to watch yesterday because I was nearly capped so I couldn't watch/download anything :(

So I watched 2 movies that I had previously downloaded but never got around to watching. First one was a Chinese movie called 'Love in Disguise' which actually stars and is directed by WANG LEE HOM! It was English-subbed so I didn't have to use my Chinese.. skills... I mean, I wanted to just listen, but I'm so used to just watching and reading the subtitles at the same time that I couldn't do it. And maybe I wasn't used to listening to Chinese or something, but... I couldn't understand like.. all.. of the Chinese at the start D:

Now that I don't have to use Chinese anymore, it's been deteriorating. Y asked me how to write an evaluative piece in Chinese, and I completely forgot, but then again, I never chose to do that text-type anyway.

Oh and I watched 'Grave of the Fireflies' which is a Studio Ghilbi film. Jason Y had been pretty much hounding me the whole year in Business Management class to watch it. Sometimes he'd just randomly ask me 'Have you watched Grave of the Fireflies yet?' And I'd say 'no' and he'd be like 'Watch itttttt!'

And.. after a whole year, I finally got round to doing so. It was sad. Like, I didn't cry, even though some people said they did, but it was sad. And it was scary. Not like, horror scary, but just like.. sad scary. Like death, and dying people, starvation, fucking aunts who are bitches. It was a good movie, but it gave me goosebumps yknow? Yeah.

Anyway, I decided to blog because.. I just wanted to say how much I love bloopers. In most dramas, sometimes at the end of an episode, they show a few bloopers and I LOVE WATCHING THEM! They're so funny and most of the time when they forget their lines they start smiling really cutely.

My favorite type of blooper is when the actor/actress continues to be in character whilst saying 'I forgot my lines'. Makes me laugh hahah. Okay, back to drama-ing.

Thank you for breathing (고마운 숨) - Tablo.

2012-01-31T11:15:00.002+11:00

Thank you for breathing (고마운 숨) - Tablo.
The lyrics made me smile :)

182

2012-01-31T10:20:00.001+11:00

10:11AM and I'm thinking about people I knew for a day. People I looked at, sat next to, made small-talk with for a week, but knew for a day.

Thinking how good life would be if I could continue the dream-like reality. Each day on a bus, travelling, hours of sitting, hours of staring out the window, staring at the seat in front, at his hair. Different home every night, the layout of each room fading as time goes on.

The last night, taking the elevator by myself, standing in the elevator myself, running to my room to get a bottle of water. Having people, no, friends, no, someone you have a slight crush on, help you with your luggage, borrow a pen, swap slippers, sit next to you, talk to you.

Playing games in the bus, cards, free gifts, sleeping as the bus starts. Going to others' rooms at night, staying up all night on the only day I knew these people. The last day I would see these people.

Have you ever had that feeling, where when you meet new people, go to new places, you don't want to go back. Back to that dread-worthy reality, familiar. But I would get sick of this too. Is it normal for a shy, anti-social person to feel this way.

181

2012-01-31T08:30:00.004+11:00

Why was my writing so much better when I was 'depressed'. I use that term loosely, but it's true there was a stage in my life, as there are in most people's lives, where emotions reached a low, and life seemed pointless.

Why has my writing, my English, everything deteriorated? I'm too content.

Expiration Date - Tablo

2012-01-30T20:48:00.004+11:00

Expiration Date (유통기한) - Tablo

Second favorite song from Tablo's solo album - Tablo Vol. 1

180

2012-01-30T20:28:00.002+11:00

Do you know what you want to do?
Do you know what you want to do in life?
Because I don't.

Where am I heading, what do I want, what is my plan. I don't know.
Why am I going to university, why am I taking Bachelor of Commerce, I don't know.

Sitting with my laptop propped on my lap, earphones in, listening to nothing. It's nearly time to crawl out of my shell, I'm scared, worried. I don't want to leave the familiar.

Are we all just floating, drifting waiting for coincidences to shape our life? Not knowing what we're doing, not knowing what we're here for, not knowing why we're alive.

179

2012-01-30T00:04:00.002+11:00

Didn't do anything as usual.
Woke up earlier than usual because it was hot - again. Thought I might've woke up early enough to use off-peak data (which ends at 8AM), but the clock in mom's room read 8something, and so did the clock on Vicky's desk.

So I went downstairs and decided to not turn on my laptop and instead packed up Yinnie's study room. I also went through old photo albums and my mom was pretty back then and my dad looked pretty okay as well in some photos HAHAHA nah, I don't really find my dad unattractive or anything, he is just really REALLY REALLLYY short. And sadly, those genes were passed to me :(

Went to the kitchen and saw 8:20 on the clock, and I was sure I had been up for more than an hour. Realise that the clock in mom's room and Vicky's desk were inaccurate and mentally hit myself for being so dumb, and later also realised it was Sunday, but missed SBS PopAsia which ended at 9:30 :( I haven't watched that in a while.. is it still on? Haha.

Spent the day on the computer as usual - watched 2 episodes of Strong Heart, and 2 episodes of Obstetrics and Gynecology which is a Korean drama. I've been watching it for a while now, it's not really a drama that has hooked me in, but it's not something that I can't be stuffed watching or anything. Like when I watch it I get into it, but I never feel the urge to watch episode after episode yknow? Well 4 more episodes to go until I finish.

Also something hilarious happened in Kpop today. Nipslip by Hwayoung of T-ara. I don't know why I found it so hilarious, maybe because I don't/didn't used to like her. Remember my rants? Hahah, but after Lovey Dovey promotions I've actually been able to tolerate her, she looks different and I'm kind of impressed with her rapping in We were in Love - Davichi and T-ara.

Feel bad for the girl, she's my age, but it still made me laugh. I am so cruel.
Well, watching the tennis, GO DJOKOVIC!

178

2012-01-29T10:39:00.001+11:00

I miss Megaupload :(

177

2012-01-28T10:23:00.000+11:00

It's really hot these days, far out - I wake up and it's already warm. I really don't like heat, even though I get freaking sick easily when it's cold. Oh wait, I get sick eitherway so whatever.

I don't know, I really hate the weather in Australia. It's so dry and just kills my skin. Apparently asthma and eczema cases in Australia are particularly high - oh, I wonder why? Fark, this weather sucks. I prefer China because it's more humid and my skin doesn't really get dry and my eczema isn't that bad even when I eat out like everyday. I don't know, they say Sydney is more like HongKong or something, and everyone knows the weather in Melbourne is fked up - well in that it is hot and then cold (which is another factor that plays a role in my constant common cold). I don't really make sense, because the whole of Australia is pretty dry, but maybe Sydney is less dry. osdifoasdnf I considered moving to Sydney when I'm older before.. LOL But then again, I hate change and stuff..

I haven't written such a long post in a long time. I should write about another thing I wanted to mention:
I never thought I would be wearing glasses all the time.

When I first got glasses in year 7, I was kind of happy. I don't know why I kind of wanted glasses, but I guess people think it's cool or whatever, like another accessory to the face. But then they started getting annoying as fk. Seriously. The fact that I was short sighted and only needed them to see the board or things that were far away, was so annoying because that meant that I had to carry my glasses case with me to every class, and being the typical Asian that I was, I had a small pencil case, meaning that my glasses case couldn't fit into my pencil case, and having to carry my glasses case too, essentially meant I had to carry two pencil cases. And my glasses case was constantly falling from my arms especially when I was walking to class.

I hated wearing glasses because I thought I looked like a weirdo. No type of glasses suited me, and my ears are uneven or something to that makes me glasses wonky. I hated carrying glasses around and I hardly wore them, even when my eyesight reached like 275, despite the optometrist's advice to wear glasses all the time, I didn't wear glasses, although it was a hassle because I couldn't see a thing! When people were waving, especially from far away, I was always like: uhhhhhhhh are they waving to me? Who is that?? I can't see.. eughhh.. I'll just wave LOL

Now I wear glasses all the time, and it's so much better, because I can see all the time now, and I've gotten used to how I look like with glasses LOL I should've stopped caring about what I looked like long ago, but I was at the prime of my teenage years yknow lol. Things are really blurry without my glasses though now that I've gotten used to wearing glasses all the time..

Uhm, was I supposed to do a China post again? LOL maybe later.

176

2012-01-27T16:12:00.001+11:00

Oh how I love reading comments on forums and stuff.
My favorite is 6theory LOL

Loved, It's over now - Brian Joo

2012-01-27T11:17:00.000+11:00

사랑하다 끝났어(Loved, It's over now) - Brian Joo

This is one of my favorite songs, but I might like the English version better LOL
I don't know, maybe because I heard the English version first.

Anyway, I love Brian Joo, and I think he is an amazing Korean singer.

175

2012-01-27T09:28:00.002+11:00

I don't update this blog as much as I want to these days.

I watched NaNa the first movie yesterday. I watched a few episodes of Strong Heart too.
Megaupload is gone forever, so that's kind of a pain in the ass when I'm trying to download some drama episodes or whatever. Megaupload was really fast. Compared to other file hosting services like.. fileserve -_-
I guess I should download more things before they pull down mediafire as well...

Everyone is an internet pirate whatever.

174

2012-01-24T23:54:00.002+11:00

Watched HUGO with Jess, Henry, MC today. It was okay, kind of weird. Had pho for lunch and then played pool after. Hot day today, 34 deg D:

Damn you, period. Cramps are fucking KILLING MEEEEEEEEEEE. aosdifnainf oh my god.

173

2012-01-22T10:11:00.001+11:00

Okay I've already finished everything to do with the enrollment at Monash - or so I think. I've made the timetable which was fucking confusing on MUTTS and allocate+

Anyway, a day to relax. Going to finish the last 2 episodes of Me Too, Flower! And also watch an episode of Heroes hahah. I should download some StarKing too LOL We'll see what I can do. I can't wait until DREAM HIGH 2! Mostly because Jiyeon is in it, but also because I liked the first season - which had an awesome cast.

Should I write a post about China? Hmm maybe. China is actually really beautiful besides the smoking, spitting and pollution. Highlight was probably the last night/morning at Shanghai. We went to watch acrobatic performance - IT WAS AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEE. Seriously, aodifnadf I actually really like watching shows LOL Like orchestral performances and acrobatics and stuff, not so much plays though. And also made some friends overseas and I saw SAMANTHA from my primary school, actually she was in my tour! So weird, but good hahah.

More later. Breakfast time!

172

2012-01-20T19:32:00.000+11:00

I don't know if many of you know, but I got into BCom at Monash University. It wasn't my first preference, but I guess I got over the disappointment, and am okay with my offer.

Right now I'm filling in the WES thing, and IT'S SO AOSIDNFADSINF. I'm on the enrollment form thing, and I have to like add and change my units. It says that the units which are already there - which are stated to be UNCONFIRMED, are core requirements for my course. Which in my case are:
Business Law
Principles of Microeconomics
Principles of Macroeconomics
Business and Economic Statistics
Introduction to Management
Principles of Marketing

Okay, so I was like whatever. But then I see everywhere that for BCom:
Six compulsory common core units (36 points):
AFC1000 Principles of accounting and finance
BTC1110 Business law
ECC1000 Principles of microeconomics
ETC1000 Business and economic statistics
MGC1010 Introduction to management
MKC1200 Principles of marketing

Uhm... WTF? I don't have Principles of accounting and finance - instead I have Principles of Macroeconomics. I'm not sure if that is a mistake or what. And just now I 'removed' Principles of Macroeconomics' and I didn't save changes or anything, but now when I go back on the page even after I close it, IT'S NOT THERE D:

Uhm, what the fuck. Is Macroeconomics core or what? because if I don't have to do it I won't.... I want to do Principles of accounting and finance... okay so I don't know what to do now..

Okay whatever, since it says everywhere principles of accounting and finance is a core, I'm just going to put that in and keep the Macroeconomics being removed, if there is a problem.. I guess I'll deal with that later.

171

2012-01-20T09:54:00.002+11:00

Why do I fall in love with every woman I see who shows me the least bit of attention?
- Joel (Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind)

170

2012-01-19T17:33:00.002+11:00

After 3 weeks I am back.
Mixed feelings about being back. Here we are again to the familiar but yet dread-worthy reality.
China was a dream. Life is about to begin again.

169

2011-12-29T21:43:00.001+11:00

I'm leaving for China tomorrow morning! I just watched an episode of Strong Heart which made me cry ahaha, everyone appreciate what you have - especially your family and friends, don't do things that could make you regret.

Anyway, hope everyone has a safe holiday and a happy new year, since I'm going to be away during then, and I don't know if I will be able to blog or anything. Take care!

Damn I can't watch the 2011 SBS Gayo Daejun because
1. I need to sleep early,
2. I'm capped :(
Oh well, maybe I can download the RAW when I get back or maybe even in China but I don't think so hahah.

And here's a pretty picture of Suzy:

And Hyori:

Okay, time to go sleep now, need to sync my iPod, and hopefully everything goes smooth tomorrow *crosses fingers* BYEEEE EVERYONE!

168

2011-12-27T19:35:00.002+11:00

I just watched the 'Before U Go' by TVXQ music video. I've watched it before hahah. I guess I always thought that HoMin were the best looking out of DB5K, but yeah, Yunho, I don't really like him with that shorter.. flat fringe, I like him best in Mirotic LOL and Wrong Number. And Changmin's eye's are REALLY big O_O I still think he's good looking though hahah.

Gotta watch 100 Days with Mr. Arrogant - Cindy recommended it to me LOL
I've heard of it before, but never really decided to watch it because it sounded like such a fanfiction title. Oh the good old days of fanfiction. I really want it watch it though now, but I'm almost capped, will use off-peak data :D

Also watched The Adventures of TinTin which was not too bad - for a cartoon. Better than Despicable Me and Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs. Played bowling for the second time (this time with the rails up) and I didn't do too bad, started off being last, and fought my way up to 4th place out of 8. And also played pool, but I was really sucky as usual, so much pressure, and I even forgot like how to hold the thing properly, or at least it felt weird today LOLOL And Eu Kin and Fred were helping me and teaching me so that's good. I didn't do TOO bad - at least I hit the balls (!), but I was a noob compared to them LOL

Ah, gettin sick, or am sick - my nose is running :( So I'm wearing my Glenny jacket :D So warm.

To Cindy if you're reading this:
My mom knows you I think. She says she listens to you on the Chinese radio thing hahahah.

167

2011-12-26T23:40:00.004+11:00

Forgot to draw something special for Christmas on TIH. Damn.
Watching Strong Heart, and it's funny and interesting hahah.
Hope I can wake up properly tomorrow, gonna watch another hour episode before I go to bed.
Should stop eating chocolate and get more sleep too.
Need to pack for China.

166

2011-12-25T00:23:00.001+11:00

It's Christmas. Well it started 8 minutes ago and everyone is posting statuses on Facebook saying 'Merry Christmas'. I get to open my presents, but I will open them in the morning when V wakes up.

I like wrapping presents, even though I'm not very good at it. I'm not Christian/Catholic or anything, so Christmas isn't REALLY that big a thing for me, just another day, I guess slightly more special than others. The money spent buying presents is.. quite a lot, and I hate having to think about what to get people - same with birthdays I guess.

Not much to write about today. Y got a new phone - Samsung Galaxy SII, and she let me have her iPod Touch, which is really weird. I didn't really want to take it at first, but yknow, she offered.

Need to watch the Music Core performances and then go to sleep.
Blogs make me laugh. Anti Kpop-fangirl hahah.

165

2011-12-23T19:14:00.004+11:00

I saw your MSN box on my screen. That familiar colour and text. You talked to me first, about what, I don't know. And then we were sitting next to each other at individual computers, but still we were MSNing each other, I looked at you and smiled. The scene changed and we were sitting on a bed - big. We were texting each other - there was no oral communication, we smiled at each other.

Dreaming.

164 - Rosebud Day 3

2011-12-23T01:59:00.000+11:00

Woke up to the sounds of cooking, and everyone talking. I think I was the last to wake up on this day, maybe because I was tired from having slept at 2 for the past few days, and waking up at 9.

Pancakes were for breakfast. We had bought pancake mixture the day before at Safeway, so yeah. There was golden syrup in the pantry, so we used that hahah, I feel like pancakes now hahah. It wasn't very sunny but since the beach was pretty much the only thing we could do, we went there.

This time we decided to walk along the beach. We walked on the path thing/ boardwalk and were headed towards the lighthouse which was situated about 2km away. We walked and walked, moving away from the main path everytime we saw a small road at the side. We walked through the bushy area to a clearly which turned out to be the area behind people's houses. We discovered a sewerage pipe, exit (?) which smelled like coke.

We kept walking along the path until we reached a bench where we sat down and searched how fat the lighthouse was. Too far, but we kept walking. We reached a playground, and that was the furthest we'd go. The playground was weird. It was dangerous, as if built specifically for teenagers. The slide was wobbly, and there was a rock climbing board that was hard to climb. The safest thing there was probably the seesaw.

After a while, we decided to go back, but this time instead of walking on the boardwalk, we walked along the beach. I picked up shells on the way back, some to give to V. Y tells me apparently we aren't supposed to take shells - I think I knew about that rule too, but I didn't take many hahah. We kept seeing jelly on the way, apparently they are some sort of sand snail, or they could be eggs or something idk.
And we saw this.. living creature thing/plant in the water.

We kept walking along the beach towards home. But we went slightly further to the pipes that we saw on the first day. There were small muscles there.

We then walked home and Mary prepared her pie. We played monopoly whilst we waited for the pie to cook. And as usual, we didn't end up finishing the game ahaha. David also cooked the rest of his beef. Some of the guys ate raw filo pastry hahah, and played with it, as you can see below:

After lunch, we tried to take a whole group photo with timer, but that didn't end up happening, instead we built a human pyramid LOL too bad I wasn't looking up.

Then we decided to go to the beach again hahah. It was warm and the cold, and then warm and then cold. We started chasing the sun, but stopped when we realised when we reached it, it would only run away again. Most of us entered the water this time. In order to try to stay warm - the water was actually pretty warm LOL When it started getting really cold, we wrapped ourselves in towels and walked home.

We had sausages, burgers for dinner. Yum.

And we left the dishes and walked to the beach again because it was the last night, and we had forgotten to go watch the sunset for the past 2 nights already hahah. The sunset was okay. I was imagining the sun setting in the water, but it just set amongst the trees. The sky was beautiful though - a mixture of purple, pinks and blues. And it looked really nice, asdfoaisdnf.

Before we went to the beach though, we went to return Captain America in the Oovie machine, and wanted to borrow another one for the night as well, but the machine was under maintenance, thus we could neither return nor borrow another movie. We started 'vlogging' on David's flipcam, it was kind of retarded hahah.

We walked along the beach, heading in the left direction. It was quite dirty in this area, and we saw that sand digging machine parked on the beach. We kept walking and walking and saw boats, and eventually walked to a.. path of sad that led into the middle of the water. It was quite scary, because as we walked towards the end of this sand path thing, we could tell the water was very deep as it was a dark green colour instead of being relatively clear and blue. And when we stood on the sand, the sand got damp really easily, it was scary how deep the water was, so we headed back.

I accidentally stepped into an area of soft sand, and my foot sank into the sand hahahah oh well, it didn't get TOO wet.

We walked home slowly, it was getting really dark already, and then we started cleaning up the house because we had to exit the house by 10AM the next day. I really hate cleaning the house, so I baggsed cleaning the dishes instead of cleaning the house LOL

Others cleaned and vacuumed and everything hahah, I washed the dishes and also packed up my room so that the others could vacuum it. And then I sat on the sofa and relaxed. And everyone else did too. Since we didn't have another movie to watch, we tried to see what was on TV - there was nothing. So we turned it off and just talked.

We talked about lots of different things - scary things, interesting things. About the Bermuda Triangle, the Illuminati, conspiracy theories, Sleep Paralysis, ghosts etc. It was really interesting, but some things kind of scared me. And again, I drank my herbal tea whilst talking and listening hahah. Mary and Bryan were really tired, they kept falling asleep. Napping for like 2 minutes LOL

It was good this time that we talked with the lights on, so much more.. relaxing and less scary, but we kept hearing weird noises outside which was scary. Apparently it was like rats or something, still scary.

We went to sleep at 2AM, even though I wasn't THAT tired. I ended up waking up pretty early the next morning too.

163

2011-12-23T01:44:00.001+11:00

Tonight was Christina's surprise 18th party! Haha, it was okay, hope she was surprised and happy :-)
Feelings are a funny thing.

Need to write up Day 3, should I do that now?
Got my earphones in and listening to nothing.

162

2011-12-22T00:44:00.002+11:00

Listening to SMTOWN's Winter album. It's nice, and it's in English.
I really like Distance by BoA and 1,2,3 by f(x).

Oh yeah, I posted Rosebud Day 2, but you have to click older entries hahah.

161

2011-12-21T23:49:00.000+11:00

Feelings. Time. Side. Hands. Look. Smile. Why.

Too long.

Writing blog entry for the second day at Rosebud, my brain is asdofiandf I can't remember the details, need to finish the post as soon as possible.

160 - Rosebud Day 2

2011-12-20T17:40:00.000+11:00

Woke up on the second day to the noise of talk and kitchen equipment and utensils. I got up and thank god my hair wasn't all weird - well it was slightly, hahah I had to push it to a side fringe. I guess it's because my hair has grown longer, longer fringe too so it pulls it down instead of sticking up everywhere.

We had French Toast for breakfast hehehe. And then we went to the beach. We thought it wasn't going to be sunny because apparently it was 70% chance of rain or something, but the morning looked sunny so we went - that was really the only thing to do hahah.

We put on sunscreen and walked to the beach. The night before we had seen that there were 'islands' in the middle of the sea when it was low tide, and seeing as it wasn't yet high tide, the guyz decided to walk to where they thought the 'island' was, even though it was submerged in water.

The photo above may give you an indication of how far the 'island' was from the shore, and the water was not even torso-deep for them. Of course it may have been up to the girls' necks if we went in hahah since we are so short :(

When I got back from the pier, and the guyz had gotten back from the water, we decided to have a sandcastle building competition, although it wasn't really a competition since we (the girls) were the clear winners hahaha. The guyz made some volcano castle thing hahah.

It started getting cloudy and cold, so the guyz decided to destroy their 'castle' and we went back home. When we got back, we decided to do Ready Steady Cook for lunch in two teams - with a 'key ingredient' which was CHICKEN. Even though I don't like chicken that much, I went with it, because it's better than pork LOL

We used a randomizer app. which wasn't very random to choose the teams. I was in a team with: Mary, Bryan, Michael. And we made kebabs and also a salad, whilst the other team made pizza and spaghetti.

I cooked the kebabs on the pan - even taking them off the skewers because I knew they wouldn't cook properly if I just turned them on the stick, but ended up biting into a raw one FARK, I spat it out immediately and washed my mouth in case I got salmonella D: must've been the people who BBQed the kebabs hahah. The rest of the food was nice, I liked the pizza :D

Ah, I can't remember what we did after. Okay, I think we were talking about playing Mafia while or before or after we shopped for our Ready, Steady, Cook! ingredients, but no one really remembered how to play hahah. So after lunch we played card games: Mafia, Cheat/Bullshit, Texas Hold'em. I think. I might be getting mixed up with the days hahah. Okay whatever, well I'll just go with we played cards. I hadn't played Mafia in AGES, and everyone else was pretty vague about how to play, but we slowly eventually remembered bit by bit. It was fun, but I think it would've been more fun with more people, more mafias - working together and such LOL and then they try to convince the civilians that whoever they are suspecting (if it is the mafia) isn't the mafia or whatever hahah.

Cheat went on for a long time - people were always cheating, which was weird. I know that's the point of the game but to be honest I don't like lying hahah, I never lied unless necessary, and I don't think anyone thought I was cheating LOL in the end, I ended up winning the game.

After we rested for a bit, and then played Poker - Texas Hold'em. We used Monopoly money, and yeah, since it wasn't even real money, we bet a lot LOL I don't think I folded at all, or maybe once LOL I lost so much! And I was on like $30, and then we all started going crazy and just all-in-ed LOL and Brandon, Bryan and David lost most of their money and I won, and I 'donated' them money hahahah. Megie was the richest I think, even though it was her first time playing or something hahah so pro!

When we had had enough of card games, I played Chinese Chess with Brandon, but I was epically failing, can't remember if I finished the game LOL Pua played with him later, and I played Chess with David. I ended up losing - Brandon gave me a few pointers though. I'm not very good at Chess LOL but I'm good at Chinese checkers.. kind of. It's been a really long time since I've played hahahah but too bad we didn't end up playing that.

And then they played Wii, and I watched because I'd never played that game before and it looked intense hahah. And then we went to Safeway again to buy stuff for dinner. First we looked at what we had in the fridge, because we needed up to use up our ingredients. We decided to have spaghetti carbonara for dinner. It was YUM! I'm hungry now hahahah. But yeah, props to Megie for cooking pretty much every meal!

After dinner we played Tumble Tower (the game that was like Jenga - I think it was called Tumble Tower anyway LOL). And I played Spit with Mary, whilst the others played Wii, and I won! Woot, hahah, I haven't played Spit in SOO long, years maybe hahah.

After we watched Captain America. I made my packet herbal tea so that I could drink it during the movie. Haha. And there were snacks - biscuits, chips, lollies too hahah, Cheetos :D Yum, haven' had them in ages too. I shouldn't've eaten them though - so bad for me hahah.

Captain America was a disappointment despite being the No.1 rented DVD on the Oovie machine thing - which is where we rented the DVD. David fell asleep halfway LOL I thought it was getting good - the movie, but then it was just lame. The ending, whuteven.

What did we do after? Since we didn't have another DVD to watch, so we started talking about scary things. Like scary stories, and Pua searched up scary stories on the internet and read them to us. Some of them were lame LOL but Pua told us to imagine something and he kind of narrated it, and since I visualise things that people say A LOT, I got pretty freaked out. We watched South Park to relieve the scariness we felt hahaha and then I think we went to bed soon after because it was getting late.

159 - Rosebud Day 1

2011-12-19T18:12:00.000+11:00

On Monday 12th December, I went to Rosebud with my friends. They are a new group of friends that I made this year, and towards the end of the year we have done more and more things together.

I woke up not too early, and not too late to finish packing last minute items. Constantly worrying about the size of my luggage case and whether it would affect citizens on public transport etc.

Met up with my friends at the bus station, bought my ticket and we waited. People who walked passed stared or laughed, did we have too much stuff? The bus came, and we got on, our bags taking up a lot of space, but we tried to minimize it as much as possible. The first bus trip was about 40 minutes or so. We took the 902 Chelsea to Edithvale Station. From there we walked to the train station which was luckily only minutes away. Whilst waiting, they ate some of the curry puffs my mom had cooked in the morning - I didn't have any because I already had some from breakfast and I wasn't very hungry.

We took the train to Frankston - Megie gave me a Ferrero Rocher to eat. This trip was only 16 minutes, but we managed to still have fun because the train was more spacious and we could sit together. Michael Pua prank called this housing company thing - there were ads pasted all over the train - and it was funny because first he put on a womanly voice and then it slowly changed to his own male voice hahah.

When we got off the train, we had to walk to the bus stop, turns out there is a 'Zone C' and we had to buy that ticket which was only $2 for a full fare, $1 for a concession. This bus trip was 1 hour long. I sat next to Mary, and we kind of got to know each other a bit more - I asked her about university and stuff, and we sort of talked about TV shows and our interests - we didn't have that much in common since I listen and watch Asian shows and music hahah.

As we got closer to our destination, we were constantly worried that we would miss our stop, but luckily we got the right one. When we got to our stop, we looked around to find the place we were staying as we knew it was close to the shopping centre. I spotted the house across the street and we were all relieved that it was a close distance to where we were dropped off - we didn't want to walk very far with so much to carry.

Maybe I should've written what I did down at the time, because I can't remember exactly what happened the next few days hahah :(

When we got to the house, the people were still cleaning and mowing the lawn, we had to wait around for like 10 minutes - but this is only because we arrived early. We were supposed to check in at 2PM but we got there slightly earlier. When they were done, we went in and checked out the house - it was quite nice and large.

We took our stuff inside, worked out whose room would be whose - I got a room to myself because I was slightly sick and I didn't mind because I actually was worried about taking too much space on the bed HAHAH because I have a queen double at home to myself.

Then we walked around outside - the shopping centre and shopping strip was pretty much opposite our house so that was very convenient. We wondered what to eat for lunch and just kept walking, we walked a long distance and eventually decided to settle to eat at Tabaret. I knew it would be expensive, but someone said it was cheap so I decided to keep my mouth shut because you know, Grice's Maxim of Quality. Don't say things which you are unsure of LOL

We went in and were seated by a lady who was not rude but looked annoyed, and scary too. She said we had 15 minutes to order or something, and after looking at the prices which were about $20 to $30 per dish, we walked out.

We went back towards our house, and on the way saw beach stuff - buckets, spades, water gun things hahah, but kept walking because we were hungry. We went back to the start and ordered Charcoal Chicken. We got 2 of this meal which consisted of fried chicken, soft drink, salad and fries. The guy tried to convince us to buy roast chicken instead of fried chicken, but seeing as it looked like it was cooked a long time ago, with the foil on top of it and all, I told them to say 'no', and they did. The guy said the chicken would take about half an hour, so we went back to that shop that sold beach stuff and bought the stuff, including sparklers which we didn't end up lighting :(

Then we went back to the Charcoal Chicken shop and told them we wanted it take away and apparently he was like 'okay', and told us we had to still wait 8 minutes, so we went to Safeway to buy things that we would be having for dinner. We got garlic bread, potato salad, onions, mushrooms. Then we went to get our chicken, and walked home.

We ate lunch inside on the large, square, wooden table in the dining area. Opened the take-away boxes to find very deep fried chicken. Nothing like KFC chicken which is usually golden brown - this chicken was dark brown and looked.. inedible, but of course I didn't want to make a fuss so I just took a piece and ate it.

I actually don't like eating chicken much, or anything that has the bone in it. So I ate messily, the whole chicken tasted weird. I commented how the chicken looked like shit and how it was different from KFC and then suddenly someone realised that the chicken inside was really cooked as if it had been roasted, and then we realise something hilarious, that the fried chicken we were eating could possibly have been that roast chicken that he was trying to sell us earlier. We cracked up so bad, and Brandon made us laugh even more by saying 'No wonder when we were telling him that we were having take-away, the roast chicken wasn't there anymore' LOL And the worst thing is, he gave us the bad parts of the chicken :( No chicken breast or chicken wings. Only shit-ass parts of the chicken that were mostly bone.

After lunch we went to check out the beach. The beach was pretty much 5 minutes from our house. We walked to this thing we thought was sewerage pipes:

The beach looks pretty dirty here, and I guess it wasn't really a swimming beach. There was lots of seaweed and to the left of those pipe structures there was a big machine, digging sad out of the beach or something, so we went right.

There was a pier which was really long and nice with fishermen there, but towards the end of the pier there were lots of starfish, which was kind of creepy. I didn't know starfish looked like that.

The pier was nice, the water was pretty. We went back to the beach and played in the water (which was thankfully warm) all the way up until around dinner time. We played with the water gun things, made megie a mermaid tail, and pua fell in twice, once because he was pushed into the water, the other by himself - which made me and the girls laugh so much.

We went back to house and played Monopoly - yes we brought board games. I kept going to jail :( and owned very little property, but by the time I came back from showering - pua who had played for me had gotten many more properties for me :D hahah, after we got bored we played this game which was similar to Jenga, I can't remember what is was called hahah, but yeah, I was good as usual - I'm really good at Jenga hahah.

Then we cooked dinner. I can't remember what exactly I did, I don't think I helped much hahahah, well this is what we had for dinner on the first night:

Doesn't it looks delicious? :D Yummy Korean beef /drools/ oh, and yeah, we ate outside in the backyard area. pua and brandon washed the table hahaha, it was hilarious because pua squeezed washing detergent onto the table and there were so many bubbles and there were dead spiders and stuff hanging under the chairs and it was disgusting but you know, it wasn't TOO bad.

After we cleaned everything, we went to the beach in our PJs :D hahah, we didn't dirty our clothes or anything we just walked on the pier. The beach at night is quite nice, the breeze is relaxing.

We walked back home room after, and I decided to call my mom. Haha, I talked to Vicky and Yinnie and Mom on the phone and they asked me if I was having fun and just the usual stuff. And then I played Mario Kart on Wii. It was fun, but I didn't manage to place high or anything hahaah, but at least I didn't come last :D

Then we decided to watch Paranormal Activity 3 which David dowloaded and put on a CD, but it stuffed up like halfway probably because the CD was scratched and we didn't even get up to any scary part LOL but Brandon told us about it and it sounded kind of fucked ahahah. But we decided to watch another scary movie which was 'The Univited'. I don't usually watch scary movies so I hadn't watched this one either but I knew it was the US adaptation of the SK movie: A tale of two sisters - which I had wanted to watch and read the whole plot/synopsis on wiki. It was somewhat different, but still fked and kind of scary nonetheless.

I think I was crawled up in a ball a lot of the time, but then again, that's how I sit when I watch things on TV, it is so much more comfortable to have your feet on the sofa instead of on the ground. The movie was kind of creepy so we decided to watch another movie which Mary had brought along - The Hot Chick. It was kind of weird - like Freaky Friday, but really no plot or anything interesting but still helped relieved the scary feeling of The Uninvited.

I think after we checked out what was on TV and watched a bit of South Park, and soon after went to bed. I was a little bit scared sleeping by myself - it was kind of retarded because of the mirrors which faced the bed, actually the sliding doors of the closet were mirrors, and also light from the street lights leaked into my room through the blinds which could be be fully shut, I guess that wasn't a bad thing, too dark a room might've scared me more.

Each night I tried to tired myself out a bit more. Each night, get into my sleeping bag, get comfortable, turn off room light, leave lamp on. Listen to Holding a Star in my Heart by IU and Milestone by BoA, and then turn off lamp and close my eyes and try to sleep.

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2011-12-19T13:04:00.002+11:00

Yinnie and I just had an MSN fight, I think. I was telling her she needs to grow the fuck up, and I don't take that back. She needs to grow up and stop feeling sorry for herself, calling herself 'the babysitter', distancing herself from this family and seeing things she does as a 'job'.

Well I kind of feel like making another CD for mom, and also packing up this room (lounge room). I'm listening to Hi-5 CDs at the moment. Haha, I'm glad I bought them when I was young, I still love Hi-5, and so does Vicky and it's good to be able to listen to them and sing along together.

Will possibly blog a lengthy blog about my trip. I think it'll be a tl;dr, hahah.

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2011-12-16T23:59:00.002+11:00

Okay, changed my blogger layout back, because I didn't really like the other one that much LOL I don't even know why I changed it to that one if I didn't like it much, but I guess the need for change exceeded my judgement or something.

Anyway, I should really write up a post about my time on the Rosebud trip with Meg and stuff. It was really, really fun! And I'm glad that I went because they're pretty much a newer group of friends and it allowed us to bond much more ~

Anyway, got my ATAR score today. I was quite scared to check, but I'm not one of those people who stay up all night or anything LOL but I DID wake up somewhat earlier than usual - at around 8:00AM. I checked around 8:45AM - looking at my subject study scores first. And then when I clicked 'View your ATAR score' or whatever it is, I was like in shock. Seriously, I didn't even think I could get over 90, and for the longest time I was preparing myself for 80 something, so much that my sister even prepared herself too, and my Dad was apparently scared I wouldn't even make 80 because there was that one time I cried after an exam LOL

I took my laptop and showed Y my score, and she was like: WOW. Not because it was that good, but because it exceeded both our expectations. And I showed Mom, and she was like WOW and she was even tearing, and gave me a hug LOL

Even now, I'm still in amazement - how did I manage to get that score... the only thing is, I don't reach my clearly-in ATAR requirement for my first preference, which is Commerce @ UoM. I'm only 0.05 off. I guess if you search, you'll find out my ATAR score. I guess I shouldn't be complaining, but I guess when I'm so close, I just wish I could've gotten that tiny bit more.

Apparently 15 students in my cohort got over 99, 46% of the cohort got over 90.

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2011-12-15T22:50:00.001+11:00

Back.

Except I have a splitting headache and I am Rudolph.

How.

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2011-12-12T08:09:00.003+11:00

Off to Rosebud today with Meg and stuff.

Slightly sick which sucks, and I even went to sleep somewhat early - 12AM, but I couldn't even fall asleep until after 1AM.

I don't know why, but I kept rolling around in bed, and I had a headache and wanted to sleep but I couldn't, sigh. Oh well, hopefully I'll get better soon - a warm shower and something warm for breakfast should do the trick.

Anyway, bye yall for the next few days!

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2011-12-11T13:46:00.002+11:00

Continuing to watch MR-Removed-s of T-ARA.

Fail CCM is fail.

I mean, by adding a 'rapper' to the group, who can not sing, but can only 'rap' means that every song requires a 'rapping' part. Most of these parts are short and are placed randomly, and consist of words/phrases like: Welcome to your wonderland', 'I like it like this, I like it like that', 'Break it', 'Make it', 'Take it'.

These lines are given to Hwayoung. And even in Roly Poly a song which consisted of all singing, by all the members, a random 'I like it like this, I like it like that, I like this, like that, yeah!' had to be added in order for Hwayoung to get a solo part at all.

So sad, but Hwayoung is forever a filler member, who substitutes for those who are absent from music shows (always lipsyncing their parts, and her own too), and added in order for the group dance formation to look less awkward.

153

2011-12-11T00:30:00.009+11:00

My rant about my favorite Korean girl-group, T-ARA.

Yes, although I am an avid fan of T-ARA, and even joined their international forum, dedicating my time to post 50 posts to access the subtitled section, there is something I must say. Okay, I just watched the MR-removed versions of Cry Cry, and no, this is not the first time I've watched MR-removed versions of T-ARA songs, most of them were horrible, but I guess this was somewhat better.

The main thing that ticks me off about T-ARA, is fucking Hwayoung. Yes, I know, fans are supposed to love every member, and I even began tolerating her a few weeks or even a few months, but after watching this MR-removed version of Cry Cry, yet again, I have nothing to say. FUCK, SHE SUCKS. WHY THE HELL DID CCM ADD HER TO T-ARA.

They pretty much added her when T-ARA started getting popular - after IGCBY promotions, not only do I believe that she does not deserve to ride on the fame the other members have helped create, but I think she is a useless member of T-ARA that does nothing for the group. She is a 'rapper' and yes, oh god, K-Pop 'rappers' are hardly rappers. But what's more, T-ARA already had two rappers that were somewhat decent, AND THEY COULD SING TOO. Why did they add this random to the group, when there were already useless members in 6-ARA.

Seriously, it pisses me off. Hwayoung does not even RAP/SING or anything, during the music shows. SHE OBVIOUSLY LIPSYNCS, because all the MR-removed-s I've watched, the audio levels are different, and she can't have had the bad mic every time -_- If she doesn't lipsync, she just BREATHES her lines. SHE HARDLY HAS ANY LINES.

I find it somewhat insulting, especially when the other girls make an effort to sing live, especially after they've been criticized for lip syncing in the past, they now make every effort to sing live. And their voices even sound half-decent, and obviously Soyeon, who should really just ditch T-ARA and is freaking underrated for her amazing voice, sounds good. And my Jiyeon has improved a lot too.

And then there are fans who freaking go: MY BORAM OR MY QRI OR MY HWAYOUNG SHOULD GET SOME LINES. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY CCM DOESN'T GIVE THEM ANY LINES ETC ETC ETC. FUCK ARE YOU GUYS DUMB? Okay, I don't even know why the above members were even ADDED to the group. Seriously, the original T-ARA

before debut included the current: Eunjung, Hyomin, Jiyeon. And the addition of SOYEON (after two members: Jiae, Jiwon left) was the best thing that happened to T-ARA.

I'm guessing Boram was probably added because of her famous father, and Qri, for her looks, Hwayoung, god knows what, but apparently because T-ARA consists of members who are not only singers but actresses - which results in them being away for music shows due to filming -, Hwayoung is pretty much a filler for members if they are away. Wow, just wow.

But yeah, WHY DO YOU THINK CCM DOESN'T GIVE THEM LINES? BECAUSE THEY SUCK. Qri can't even 'say' her 'solo' lines properly, when she only has to say 'T-ARA' at the start, and 'TIME TO LOVE' at the end. Or well at least it sounds nothing like the auto-tuned voice in the background, but I guess she at least says it out loud rather than breathing her words like Hwayoung - which I might add consists of lines like 'Break it', 'Make it', 'Take it' (K-Pop songs just aren't K-pop songs if there are random English words/phrases/lines in it)

Okay, I cbf going on.

But seriously if it was me: T-ARA would do just FINE with: Jiyeon, Eunjung, Hyomin, Soyeon.

BUT DO YOU KNOW WHAT THE LAME THING IS:

Even if I want T-ARA to be just those 4 members it won't happen because if you make a sub-unit, might as well ditch T-ARA.
The other 3 members aren't going to leave, because they are NOTHING without T-ARA, they are pretty much nothing within T-ARA too. Qri is somewhat fappable material though.

I really don't like that I feel this way about my favorite girl-group, but with them coming out with better songs (seriously WHAT THE HELL WAS BO PEEP BO PEEPand YA YA YA?), I feel like T-ARA has the potential to be slowly climbing its way up the K-pop ladder, but with members who get little to no lines and only get to 'sing' (lip sync) the chorus, random 'raps' with nonsensical English, and Soyeon who freaking sings half the song, obviously something is wrong.

P.S. Even when I Google T-ARA on GoogleImages, mostly it comes up with 6-ARA LOL

P.P.S. I find it annoying when people defend Hwayoung and say that they only started becoming interested in T-ARA after Hwayoung was added. OBVIOUSLY YOU STARTED BECOMING IN T-ARA AFTER IGCBOY, and their next comeback was with the new addition of Hwayoung, so you THINK she got you into T-ARA, okay maybe I'm just delusional and I really dont' like Hwayoung LOL But yeah, I don't see what she brings to T-ARA... at all.

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2011-12-09T01:31:00.002+11:00

1:31AM.

When did I start staying up until so late? This is really bad for my body, and my skin is literally dying.

Listening to poppy K-pop songs on repeat. The night is quiet. Nice and quiet, comforting. I changed my blog layout. I don't really like the heading. But I can't think of another one yet, so I just reused the old one.

My eye is hurting, and so is my head, but only 25 minutes until I can use my off-peak data. Nothing to download though.. I also need to pack for schoolies soon. Need to ask people what to bring etc. Going to Rosebud.

Also got a new bag, a pair of sunnies (which are slightly too big, but better than none), and a pair of shorts (i hate shorts because my legs are fat, but whatever... it's actually my first pair of shorts, other than PE shorts hahaha)

Wish we got our results after I got back from China. Sigh. So sad thinking about it.

Milestone - BoA

2011-12-08T22:08:00.002+11:00

And also, agree with Cindy, music videos definitely play a role in whether or not we 'like' the song.

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2011-12-08T13:41:00.002+11:00

Man, I forgot how to start blog entries.

I've got a freaking heading at the moment because I went to sleep at like 3:30AM or so, because I was watching this Korean sit-com called 'High Kick though the Roof'. And I've got a stomach ache and a slight cold. Maybe I should've gone to bed earlier.

Anyway, I was supposed to go to the beach with my friends today, but I really cannot be fucked. It's really sad actually LOL But I guess a lot of people around me know that I don't like going out, which they find strange, but yeah.

Sushi for lunch, gonna watch some more High Kick 2 later.

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2011-12-06T22:09:00.002+11:00

Went out with Meg etc. today to Box Hill. My first time taking the bus from my house to GW station. It was nerve wracking, and I even wanted my sister to walk me to the bus stop. But I managed to hail the bus successfully, and got to the station OK.

James sat with me on the bus and we talked about school mostly, not much in common hahah, a lot of silence in between, but it wasn't uncomfortable silence, I don't really find silence uncomfortable unless I am uncomfortable, but most of the time I don't really care enough to find it uncomfortable.

Waited around at the bus stop. I like waiting at bus stops. I like taking the bus. I like taking the train. I like public transport, but if only it was cleaner.

Ate at 'David & Camy's Noodle Restaurant' or something. We had dumplings. And noodles. I liked the noodles, the dumplings were okay. Bought Kaye and Jess' present, dunno when to give it to them. I need to give one of them the box.

Sigh, ceebs now.

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2011-12-05T22:20:00.004+11:00

I watched 3 movies today. Wrapped in my duvet, lying against my bedroom wall, laptop propped on my stomach. Nose running, head hurting, and throat hurting slightly.

We'll see how I feel tomorrow.

P.S. A Moment to Remember is now my favorite movie.

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2011-12-04T21:10:00.003+11:00

Feel like watching something, but there's nothing to watch. I'm going to finish off Athena tonight. 3 more episodes left.

I feel like I have nothing to say in this blog if I'm not sad. Although I do have conflicting thoughts at the moment. I wish I could just stay at home forever and ever.

Thoughts of the outside world frequent my thoughts, but also give me a headache. Wish I could just go to China now, and not think about going out with people. I don't even know WHY I like being antisocial, but I guess, that's me.

Nose is running, and it's so annoying.

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2011-12-04T12:14:00.003+11:00

12:15PM now. Mom is making curry puffs and potato salad I think, for lunch :D

I woke up at 11:19AM, wanted to have a fried egg and toast, but I guess, there was no time because as soon as I had even finished washing the pan thing LOL mom was already coming to the kitchen. Oh well, I had vegetable soup for breakfast.

Vegetable soup is yummy it consists of: tomatoes, potatoes, carrots, (celery), onion, chicken? LOL i don't even know, some meat, but I don't like to eat the meat.

I read Cindy's post of SK films, and I really feel like watching some right now - but I'm capped :( I haven't watched very many SK films, most of the ones I've watched were shit LOL Maybe I'm just not good at picking films. Most of the ones I've watched were because I wanted to see the actors. Or maybe I'm more of a drama person LOL But yeah, I think I like Japanese films more, but yeah, again, I haven't seen that many LOL

And I just realised JANG HYUK WAS the guy from Ogamdo LOL that movie is basically a movie filled with sex. Ogamdo = 5 sense of Eros. It's like 5 different stories which are slightly connected, I liked perhaps 2 or 3 of the stories.

I want to watch:

Frozen Flower, because it's recommended by Cindy but also because JiHyo is in it LOL
The Housewife, because the picture that Cindy posted looked good LOL
A Tale of Two Sisters, but I'm really scared, so maybe I'll put that on hold..
And there was this other one I wanted to watch, it was something about plastic surgery or something hahahah

Sigh, my nose is runny, and I have a headache, perhaps I should go to sleep earlier. I don't want to get sick :(

Currently listening to: Turned off the TV - LeeSsang

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2011-12-03T12:07:00.006+11:00

Running Man is no doubt my favorite K-variety show. One that I've been able to stick with for 67 episodes. I gave up after about 30 for Family Outing. And the rest weren't really variety shows that I started from the start with - I watched a few if they guested 2PM/T-ara or something.

It's a show where I love all the cast, or at least have grown to love all of them. They make me laugh, smile, giggle, seriously, it's the best. Although sometimes there are certain parts that annoy me, I'm so glad I picked up this variety show.

And that's what I've been doing for the past 2 weeks, watching Running Man. I am indeed the crab who hides in its shell.

I've been thinking about who exactly is my favorite member. I used to say JoongKi, but he wasn't really that great of a 'Running Man', perhaps I only liked him for his looks, his bromance with GwangSoo and loveline/siblingline with JiHyo.

I've been thinking, and it's probably Yoo Jae Suk, HaHa or Gary that is my favorite.

'STRESS' hahah, always makes me laugh.

P.S. I think I'm catching a cold :(

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2011-12-03T00:20:00.003+11:00

Oh what a relaxing day at home again. This is the life.

Except, I'm up to date with the RM subs, so that means I will have to wait for the subs to come out :(

It's okay, I can watch Dream Girls ep 10 and also the rest of Athena until I become uncapped and can watch drama again. And then off to Schoolies, and off to China. 2 weeks until the dreaded date. Not going to think about it.

Probably gonna get capped tomorrow. Time to sleep, my skin is dying, and I want to wake up early enough to have breakfast for once this week.

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2011-12-02T01:39:00.002+11:00

Hiding away at home because I like to.

I don't know why but I always become anti-social during the holidays. I don't want to go out, and stress myself out with whether I should go when people ask me to places.

I guess I don't hate that I feel this way, but I feel guilty. I feel bad when I regret someone purely based on my own selfish desire to avoid human interaction, especially when they have considered and asked me to go.

Also yeah, the other day I was asked to go rockcliming, but, my phone actually ran out of battery LOL and since I hardly use my phone, don't check it regularly, it died without me knowing, and I saw the message too late hahah oops.

Anyway, I've been watching Running Man. It's so good. I guess in the middle of the eps I've watched, I kind of got bored, but it's somehow.. good again :D which is good because a lot of other shows are boring hahah. I went to Springvale with family today. The new buildings are quite nice. There is actually one smell I like in Springvale LOL and it's you know, those grocers that have vegetables (菜) and they spray water on it to keep it fresh, yeah, I kind of like the smell of it. Weird, I know.

I had pho for dinner, YUM. But as usual, there was too much food hahah, was too full. And also, everytime we come back from Springvale I feel very tired, but I think it's because we eat too much hahah. I had a headache too, but lying in bed watching RM somehow relieved it. Anyway, waiting for 2:00 to come so I can use off-peak net.

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2011-11-30T00:53:00.002+11:00

Wasted so much internet watching the 2011 MAMA awards live. Oh well. Haha, Kpop really, reveals the true me, I guess. I get so excited about it all, seeing the celebrities I know on screen. Especially because I'm really into Korean popular culture, and am familiar with most artists/bands/actors/actresses, it's so much more interesting and allows me to 'get into it'.

If there's one thing that I have been dedicated to, it's Korean popular culture. Sure, I wouldn't call myself the biggest fan or anything, I mean, definitely not even close, especially when you see those crazy stalker fans. I'm somewhat a passive fan, but that doesn't change the fact that it is one thing that I have actually dedicated myself to.

To know the names of the artists, listening to their songs, watching their music videos, watching dramas, watching variety shows. Sure, it may be all for fun, for happiness, but it is still dedication nonetheless.

The point of this post? Nothing.

Currently listening to: That Woman - Baek Ji Young (Secret Garden OST). It won the Best OST Award (:

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2011-11-29T22:40:00.001+11:00

Things that make me happy:

Watching the 2011 MAMA live
Having the artists I want to win, win: LeeSsang, Baek Ji Young, Aziatix
Watching the performances, of groups/artists that I know and don't know (so that I can get to know them)

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2011-11-29T00:25:00.002+11:00

Wow, it's 12:25AM, and I don't really feel all that tired, but I do have a slight headache. Maybe I should go to sleep now since I only got about 5 hours last night.

Hmm, watched 2 eps of RM today, and 2 eps of Heroes. Heroes is kind of boring, but I force myself to watch it for Jiyeon, and also the other random times where it is somewhat interesting. RM is seriously, the best.

Woke up angry, but most things are resolved now.

Yinnie needs to buy 3 more books.

No one wants to buy my BM books. OH WELL.

Staying at home is nice, relaxing. Nothing on my mind, it's... wonderful.

Cannot wait to go to China though, I want to take lots of photographs :-)

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2011-11-27T11:46:00.001+11:00

Love you K.

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2011-11-27T00:21:00.002+11:00

There was a time when I wanted to go everywhere. Participate in any event I was invited to. Just go, for the memories. I don't know when that period of my life started, probably around graduation or so, all the way up to now.

But it feels like it's enough. I've gotten enough memories. I cannot be bothered going out anymore. I'm falling back into my anti-social behaviour, so bad, but so good. I know if I do go back there, it'll change a lot of things. My attitudes towards, friends, people, life, work, education. But one time won't hurt right? One time?

Not sure whether I'm jealous of these people, or just shaking my head because I truly feel that way. Getting so confused. About my feelings, again.

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2011-11-27T00:09:00.000+11:00

I just want to relax. Can't I even do that?

Can't I do that without feeling bad.

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2011-11-25T01:08:00.002+11:00

It's pretty late now. I was bored out of my mind, but realised that there was not really anything to talk about anymore. Everyone is playing games, I have nothing to talk about either - I actually never really talked about anything, and I wasn't in the mood to fully put effort into keeping the conversation going, so I watched drama.

Sometimes, I ceebs drama, but when I start, I just get hooked. I have 2 more episodes til I finish. Although I could criticise this drama, I choose not to, because the way it makes me feel during the Song Seung Hun x Kim Tae Hee moments is seriously aodifnaodifn I turn into such a girl and smile, and squeal inside and just clap or roll around.

I love when dramas make me feel like that. I love cute dramas. Although, I wouldn't really want some of the stuff to happen to me, maybe just the cute parts hahah. Well yes, that's it. Time to sleep.

Need to vacuum the house tomorrow :-)

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2011-11-24T11:45:00.002+11:00

Wallflower - Priscilla Ahn.
My current favorite song.

My favorite part is "we could be wallflower friends, to the end"
Reminds me of back in the day.

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2011-11-23T23:44:00.001+11:00

Are we really playing this game again? Going back to square one? Or are you trying to hint something, trying to subtly tell me something? Should I head towards the exit?

Today was fun.

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2011-11-23T16:32:00.002+11:00

Okay, mom is pissed. Something about her having to drive me places. Maybe she is just stressed. Sigh. Yinnie thinks she is going through menopause. I think it's just her time of the month. It's not even her who has to drive me, it's my dad most of the time. Just that this week happens to be her week.

Oh well, at least my dad is on my side. He's starting to get more and more lovely in my eyes. I will have to tell Christina about it later, zz. Will be leaving early, don't really mind, because I don't fit in all that well with them anyway.

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2011-11-22T23:55:00.003+11:00

Just before I go to bed, just wanted to update yall on my drama watching. Yes, I got myself back into drama-mode.

The few days leading to me watching a new drama, I was watching various shows like Running Man, Hellobaby T-Ara (which, by the way, is really boring but I forced myself because it's T-Ara). And went out, and did nothing, so bored of Tumblr now. Can't even bring myself to click the next page button. Sometimes I'll scroll down the first page of the dashboard, but I just can't do any more.

Currently watching: MY PRINCESS. Starring Kim Tae Hee and Song Seung Hun. They are SO PERFECT TOGETHER. CAN THEY PLEASE JUST GET TOGETHER AND GET MARRIED ALREADY. YOU'RE BOTH ALREADY IN YOUR THIRTIES. If only the rumours were true, but apparently Song Seung Hun dealt with the rumours by saying that Kim Tae Hee is beautiful, but his ideal type is Han Ga In. WELL HAN GA IN IS ALREADY MARRIED, MAYBE YOU SHOULD GO FOR THE NATION'S IDEAL WOMAN.

Kim Tae Hee is PERFECT. And I mean, just mesmerisingly beautiful. She is wow. Just beautiful, pretty, cute, EVERYTHING. She is like my idol. If only I was into her more, and idolised her more, maybe I would've worked harder in school. Her average was like 100% for all subjects during all 3 years of middle school. I wish I looked like her. I wish I was skinny like her. I wish I could look good in any clothes like her. Gotta start working on it, instead of wishing.

BUT SERIOUSLY GUYS, SHE IS AOSDFNAOIDFNAFION *drool* I would seriously consider my going lesbian for her. I mean,

JUST LOOK AT THAT.

And Song Seung Hun is HOT AS TOO!

Hahaha, just going crazy because I haven't drama-ed in so long. Ah, the good old anti-social days.

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2011-11-22T22:44:00.002+11:00

Things that make me happy:

People 'liking' my comment
Watching drama
Kim Tae Hee and Song Seung Hun moments

When people 'like' my comment on Facebook, I always feel so happy. Right now I'm telling Azri and Yinnie how many likes I've gotten. 'Hahaha, I got a like', 'two likes', 'another like'. I actually am quite hesitant in posting comments on Facebook I guess in the fear that people will judge my comment and think I'm an idiot or something.

I even close the Facebook tab immediately after I have pressed enter. If you're the last commentor and you get no likes, it's just awkward. So I always hope that someone will 'like' it or something. Of course I can always trust Azri to have my back.

Hopefully tomorrow will go smooth. I also went to see doctor today.

Note to self: do not use hot water when showering, use 'luke warm water' - I quote the doctor.

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2011-11-21T23:23:00.002+11:00

Monday night, lying in bed with laptop propped onto my stomach, listening to 4 songs on a loop. I'm trying to find new songs, but nothing is perfect. Only these four songs. Last.fm won't give me any similar artists to Rachael Yamagata or Priscilla Ahn that are male or groups. And if they do, they're just not very similar at all.

Lying in bed, feeling blank, but at the same time like time is running out. I feel jittery and nervous. I'm so bored, desperately want someone to just talk to me, but no one will. It's okay, I don't know why I feel like this.

I watched 'In Time' today. Such a disappointment. Thought it was going to be awesome - I admit the concept was great, but there were a few holes and overall, it was just a bit weird. Had lunch at 'Spicy Fish'. First time there, it was quite good.

Now that school is over, I'm bored of the shows that made me laugh. I'm bored. I don't even feel like talking to anyone. Just want to rest.

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2011-11-21T00:48:00.003+11:00

Today is Sunday. Actually it's already 12:49AM so it's technically Monday. Woke up at around 11:30AM, ate some potato salad and started looking for new songs. Didn't end up doing that for very long, but my current favorite song is 'Be Your Love' by Rachel Yamagata. It's lovely.

I also watched an ep of RM. Hahah, back into watching stuff. I actually couldn't be stuffed, but I wasn't doing anything and was bored so I pretty much told myself to watch it or else I'll be wasting time hahah.

Ate out with family at Fu Long. Everyone was there tonight. It's actually kind of awkward to talk to them though because they're so much older. They asked about exams and stuff, told me not to be tense while waiting for my results - not even LOL But 2 of them did Commerce @ Melbourne, kind of hope I can make it in so I can join the 'club'. I don't know.

For some reason these past few days I've been feeling emotions that I wish I wasn't. Love, jealousy, frustration, annoyance. A lot of these things I shouldn't be feeling when school is over. I guess that's what happens when nothing matters anymore. Wish I could be excited. Should be excited.

依然愛你 - Wang Lee Hom

2011-11-19T23:14:00.003+11:00

I actually really like this song, the song is a little too cute, but yknow, it's okay. Lee Hom is so hot for a 35 year old. Yes, I know they say men get 'sexier with age' but SERIOUSLY. I'M GONNA DATE AND MARRY SOMEONE THAT LOOKS LIKE HIM. Oh, I mentioned that in an earlier post already hahah, but seriously <3

Yinnie is keeping me entertained for the night ~ hehe
Now I'm listening to Lee Hom. I realised I have heaps of his albums but never really bothered to listen to them. He might be the next Jay Chou (to me), although I know already those two men are the 2 top Chinese superstars.

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2011-11-18T17:44:00.001+11:00

Just to let yall know, I'M FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

FREE FREE FREE FREE FREEEEEEEEEEEEE

No more exams, no more school.

I didn't actually get my profile thing, because I thought senior centre would be closed. I might go sometime next week, hahah, but NO MORE STUDYING :D

:D :D :D

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2011-11-18T00:30:00.001+11:00

Ceebies BM tomorrow.

Haven't done much study, just read through notes, looked through last year's exam. Ceebs going through other exams because the study design changed last year so yeah.

Tired, will just do the best that I can, hopefully it'll go smooth, if not, you and I will both know why.

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2011-11-17T18:40:00.001+11:00

Wow, the end is so near. So, so, so, so, so near.

It feels almost like a dream. Have I really done 6 exams?

As expected, EL failed me. I bs-ed a lot, but at least I wrote something for all the questions, and was very close to finishing my (fail) essay - on the conclusion. It felt like I was writing a persuasive piece, fml. And I forced myself to write down anything that popped to mind, because there was like 30 minutes before pens down. Better than writing nothing I guess.

One more, tomorrow is FREEDOM.

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2011-11-16T23:34:00.002+11:00

Wow okay, blogspot just turned blue. This is weird, but pretty hahah. I had my VCD exam today, got owned by it, I was probably over confident, but seriously, they made it hard this year - like every exam.

I couldn't come up with a good design for the design part of the exam, WHICH SUCKS, because usually I'm fairly okay with it and am able to get full or close to full marks, BUT THIS TIME, oh gosh, probably gonna get half marks :(

I screwed it up pretty bad, I'm scared now.

Englang tomorrow :( Not ready, it's at 3:00PM though, dunno if I will revise much tomorrow. I don't really like revising on the day. I haven't revised enough, everything is so vague. Fml.

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2011-11-16T14:44:00.001+11:00

(: (: and (: again.

Recently there's been a lot of (:'s hasn't there? Hahaha.

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2011-11-15T20:13:00.001+11:00

Things that make me happy:

When people 'like' my comments on facebook
Rainy nights
Listening to Han Hee Jung

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2011-11-15T18:24:00.003+11:00

Even though I probably looked like an illiterate retard, (: Satisfied for once.

VCD exam tomorrow. It'll be okay, be confident, but not over confident. I can do this. You all can too, have some faith in yourself, don't pressure yourself too much either. Aim higher, aim high.

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2011-11-15T11:42:00.002+11:00

Well, this is troublesome. Not that I really cared for the revision session, I just wanted the practice exams and the extra sheets or whatever.

Mom is pissed, probably, because I only just her pretty much 5 minutes ago that I need to get to school by 12, oh well, fuck it, I'll probably be at school around 1. Hopefully she will be at her office, if not, I don't really care.

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2011-11-14T23:00:00.002+11:00

Things that make me happy:

Changing my blog skin to something to something new but beautiful
Letting go
Being called a sweet person
Writing letters
Reading letters
Reading letters I have written people
Talking to my sister on MSN

to meg

2011-11-14T09:45:00.003+11:00

Didn't end up going to school today because as I was about to fall asleep, I thought about where I would study, and then realised they'd probably be having an exam in the senior centre, and I actually can't study properly anywhere else, nor do I like studying anywhere else.

And there's probably lots of people in sci-tech etc, resulting in unproductive-ness. I will see you, Wednesday at the latest, and give you the money, if I can manage to get it LOL

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2011-11-13T23:05:00.004+11:00

Okay, am I going to school tomorrow morning or not?

Sigh, kind of ceebs, and want to sleep in, but at the same time, thinking about all the notes and revision I could do whilst at school. Well I guess that's that, waking up at 7 to get ready to go to school tomorrow and study for EL! Fuck the other subjects.

I did a bit of business today, but got side tracked and watched Wongfu's videos - the making of Wang Lee Hom's MV. Wow, I can't believe that they were asked to produce a music video for LEE HOM! He's like pretty much a super star, really famous in Asia. And he's really hot as well. For a 35 year old. LOL.

Kind of want to marry someone that looks like him, or Jang Hyuk. Kind of random, but Azri was asking me all these questions about the future, and when I was picturing my 'husband', I picture Jang Hyuk, I DON'T KNOW WHY. LOL.

Anyway, off to bed. Need to get rest, cannot wait until this week is over, AND THEN FREEDOM. Everyone else seems to have so much planned, I don't really have much :x OH WELL, I don't care, better than doing work :D

Also, I was reading about popular bloggers like XiaXue and Dawn Yang. I should be a professional blogger LOL but my life is so uninteresting. They're like famous, and Dawn is like a model, but apparently she's like a bitch, wait they both are, I guess that's what makes them interesting, and also they are quite pretty. I also watched these make up video things, no, not tutorials, but you know those, OH SHIT SHE'S UGLY, and then she wears make up, lenses, false eyelashes and she looks hot. Yeah, those.

There was this one show where the judges and stuff, pretty much condemn the way the girls look, about say how they're ugly and stuff, and they get them to make up half their face, and show one side, and be like eugh, and the other side OH MY GOD, IT'S A GODDESS, and then they transform the other side of their face. To be honest, I find it quite pathetic. At first I thought the girls were somewhat unattractive too, but then I realised, I was just comparing them so much against the artificial make-uped face, and in fact, they were not ugly at all, they just looked like normal citizens. Not overly beautiful, but not THAT bad. Just normal.

The world is a materialistic place. People judge you, all the time.

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2011-11-13T15:07:00.002+11:00

Okay, I am.. SO screwed for exams. I mean, okay, I've done four exams already, but that was only for two subjects, and they were all maths. I am not good at writing, like seriously, I am NOT.

I can't even memorise any of this business stuff, and wow, I haven't even studied properly for four days straight, that's really bad. I can't even be bothered, I feel like I might just rock up to the exam and see what happens - but then again, isn't that what I've been doing for the past four exams I've done?

Gonna just get the basics because I can't be bothered.

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2011-11-13T00:47:00.002+11:00

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2011-11-13T00:39:00.002+11:00

If I ever ask you 'Do you check your email often?' it means I'm going to send you an email.

I find it really, weird, that I just ask people that randomly, and they're kind of like 'what?', well I think they're like 'what?' in their minds, but they answer the question anyway.

It's kind of a really weird and random question isn't it?

Am I being really weird and random right now? I'm tired.

Signing out.

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2011-11-12T21:19:00.002+11:00

Reading some entries of this girl that goes to my school's blog. They're pretty old because she stopped blogging, but yeah. Sometimes I feel like I should really blog, like normal people, not just write my random feelings, but with like photos and stuff - like what Shen and Viv do. But then I'm like ceeeeeeeeeeeeeebs taking photos of everything I do.

Although if I did, I guess I would have to change my layout, and it'd make my blog more interesting. Hmm. I'll think about it later.

Should be studying, but have wasted a lot of times these past few days. Can't wait til it's over, but at the same time, it'll be sad. Sigh, I need to study instead of complain.

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2011-11-12T17:40:00.002+11:00

5:40PM, it's so bright outside, my window is open, and it's warm too. Feels like 3PM. It feels damn good not to have tutor anymore, even though I've been wasting my time on the internet doing God knows what. I tried writing up notes for BM, and I'm going to finish writing and reading over notes for the first area of study of unit 3 by today.

I'm actually really scared that I'm not going to do well in VCE, but to be honest, there are still other options, I'm okay with doing Banking and Finance, but what if I don't even get a score high enough for that? Thinking about it makes me feel sick.

Really feel like making my photo wall D: but cannot waste time, time is running out! And also excited for what lies ahead after exams, although I am scared of asking my mom for money for schoolies LOL I will ask at a later date. I told her the dates that we are going today, and she was kind of silent, and I asked her 'okay?' and she told me to concentrate on studies.. I must, or else what the point of having fun after exams are over, when you're freaking fucked for life?

Thoughts of the future are scary.

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2011-11-11T14:50:00.003+11:00

Going through old files. Old powerpoints. Old projects. I wish I had kept those chatlogs instead of deleting them in a bid to get you off my mind, out of my heart.

I was reading the powerpoint that I made for Kristine's 'Goodbye powerpoint'. I was pretty good with words:

Time is always against us. It continues to drag us away from the past, and eventually it begins to blur and fade. Things stored in our brain, we may forget, but things stored in our hearts forever remain.

Our friends all hold a piece of our heart, and when they move away, they take that piece with them. We feel upset when our paths become parallel again, because our heart is broken; there's a hole.

But nonetheless we continue to wait for the day we meet again.

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2011-11-11T13:57:00.004+11:00

In the process of cleaning up my room. I've almost finished, but it's taken longer than I anticipated. I thought putting a few clothes away or into the laundry basket, stuffing books and sheets onto my shelve, and I'd be done. But I ended up looking at old photos, cards, everything.

Feel so nostalgic and sad. High school is really ending. These' 18 years of my life that I've spent in school, with my family, with friends. It's ending. Routine wakeups, familiar classrooms, classmates. It's all ending. No more laughing with friends, getting told off. No more sitting on the bitchemen gossiping. No more staring at your crush from afar.

I know there will be better and greater things in the future, but I can't help but be sad that it's all ending. Things are ending. Familiar classrooms, furniture, teachers, friends. We can only grab a handful, a handful of people we wish to bring with us into the next part of this journey we call life.

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2011-11-11T11:49:00.004+11:00

Things that confuse me:

Being added to the 'Glenny Class of Gaming' when I don't even game.

Things that make me happy:

Knowing that people read my blog posts
Megie commenting on my blog
Knowing people like my blog posts
Listening to Dear Cloud
My lappy wallpaper
Taking webcam photos and videos with V

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2011-11-11T11:42:00.002+11:00

I realise I actually waste my time so much. These past few days, okay, well yesterday, I did nothing. I went over a few VCD things at school, went home, and just stared at my laptop screen. Listening to Jay Chou, Tablo. Was bored. Listening to Jay Chou has now bored me, I've been listening to him too much recently. Now listening to Dear Cloud. They're a korean indie band, I forgot how much I love them.

I'm going to actually, fully finish packing up my room. I like packing up my room, but sometimes I cannot be bothered. I also want to hang this thing that I framed, on my wall. I should ask my mom for a nail and hammer or something, or maybe I'll just go downstairs and look for myself.ve

I've also chosen photos that I want to print out and stick onto my wall. I'm trying to cut it down to around 50. I had almost 100 before hahaha. Most of them are of me and the girls, and I have like 3 photos with Megie which I want to print hahaha - that's a lot, most people get at most 2, but I really like the photos I have with her.

I also need to tell mom details of Schoolies. Excited for a lot of things. Jess', Lea's, everything. I am going to take lots of photographs. I actually really like taking photos, I mean, for people. Even though I don't have a 'pro' camera or anything, it's pretty okay, and it's just fun. I don't even mind not being in the photos, because looking back, at others in the photos, still reminds me of the atmosphere, the feeling, of that time.

Haven't posted a long post in a while, and not about school, ahahaha. Time to pack up room. And, I don't know if Megie will read this, I'm not going to school today, I think I told you though.. hahaha, I'm gonna go on Tuesday, if I do go.

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2011-11-11T00:07:00.002+11:00

Things I dislike:

having no one talk to you on MSN and being bored shitless
not knowing what to do, so decide to start a letter
not knowing what to write in a letter, so decide to watch youtube
youtubing and ignoring the one person talking to you
being tired, but not wanting to get off lappy

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2011-11-10T19:45:00.001+11:00

So freaking bored.

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2011-11-09T23:40:00.002+11:00

Things I dislike:

CCM being stupid idiots for adding Hwayoung to T-ara. New rapper was unnecessary as there were also two members who were vocalists AND rappers. Freaking EPIC already, meaning, not every song had to have a freaking random rap -_- i.e. Roly Poly, Why you like this.
She doesn't even match with T-ara, she's a freaking GIANT
She helps with the formations (dancing) BUT OMG, THEY'RE SO DUMB, FORMATION IS BEST WHEN THERE'S LIKE 5 MEMBERS, WHY DA FUQ DID THEY ADD USELESS MEMBER QRI -_-

Tablo - Fever's End Commentary Film

2011-11-09T20:41:00.000+11:00

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2011-11-09T16:19:00.003+11:00

Don't know how I am in a content mood, but I guess as usual, I've accepted it. That's the good thing about me, I think about it for a while, get very sad or very happy, depending on the situation, but then soon, I go back to being content, accepting, getting over it quickly.

Things that make me happy:

Passing down CAS calculator to Y
Reblogging pretty pictures from Y's tumblr
Putting my summer dress and knee high socks in Y's closet
Packing away all my MAF and MAM stuff
Listening to Han Hee Jung

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2011-11-09T15:22:00.003+11:00

Things I dislike:

being stupid and forgetting to fill in the multiple choice answer sheet for one of the most important exams of your schooling, resulting in your probably not even getting 25 for methods, meaning you can't even get into university. Great.
dad turning off HP4 when I was clearly watching it, whilst being on the laptop at the same time

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2011-11-09T15:05:00.004+11:00

Thought I should post something, but I don't know what. Thought I should post about it, but I'm over it. If I think about it more, I will worry more, panic more, cry more.

The paper itself was bad. I got raped, but what I worry about more, is not getting any marks for MCQ on account of I didn't even fill in the MCQ answer sheet. Wow. Am I stupid or what?

No point worrying about it now, I told the VCE coordinator lady, and she was kind of mean, but nice. I told her I forgot to fill in the MCQ stuff, and she was like "why?" WTF? OH YEP, BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO -_- what a stupid question, but I guess a stupid question is better than being stupid.

Was angry at my stupidity, angry at the exam. My dad told me not to worry so much, Yinnie tried to comfort me by telling me, that even if I go to a bad university I can still have a good life. I guess, she's right.

I mean, nothing I can do about it now, except hope that VCAA pick up on it, call the school, and somehow transfer my circled answers from the book to the answer sheet. I'm sure it's not the first time it's happened, actually I know it's not. But, whatever.

I'm bored, watching HP4. Going to tag my previous posts.

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2011-11-08T23:33:00.003+11:00

Cannot believe these exams matter. For the past few years, mid year exams, end of year exams, they meant nothing. Fail? who cares. It's almost surreal, that these exams, determine our life. Well, the easiest path to the future you want.

Haven't prepared much for this, I'm just hoping that it'll be okay, if not, I might cry. I should look over some more exam questions.

P.S. I failed my VCD folio, and also the practice exam. Fuck.

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2011-11-08T15:08:00.004+11:00

Things I dislike:

Thinking you're okay with methods, getting fucked over by past VCAA exams, thinking it's okay, the reason exam will probably be okay, getting fucked over with the real exams than all the past exams, and the practice exams.
being disappointed in myself for losing marks that I could not afford to lose
not doing anything about exam 2, despite it being tomorrow, and me being fucked for it on account of I have only done a measly 2 practice exams

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2011-11-07T22:11:00.000+11:00

Things I dislike:

Thinking you're okay with methods, but then getting fucked over by VCAA papers

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2011-11-07T16:46:00.001+11:00

My favorite moment of every year.

When booklists come out, and I can work out which books I need to, or can, sell, and for what price, and to who. And how much I can get (:

ANYONE WITH SIBLINGS, PLEASE REPLY THIS.

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2011-11-07T15:08:00.004+11:00

Wow, just got pwned.

I knew it would happen because I wasn't feeling good about losing the one mark in VCAA 2009.

Had to owned this year, had to get owned in this exam, because I did okay in exam 1. Sigh.

Disappointed, and I can't stop thinking about it. Methods, sigh.

(: hehe

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2011-11-07T00:22:00.002+11:00

Wow, it's so late, I didn't even realise, but now my eyes are about to close.

MAF exam 2 tomorrow, I'm a bit worried. Last year's exam was pretty bad, but 2009 was good as. Only lost one mark and it was stupid because of the correlation coefficient, I forgot that it could be negative.

Hope I do okay, found out SACs were worth heaps, oh fuck my life. I failed the sacs.

Methods study tomorrow, adsofinadfoin so scared for methods :(

sleep time.

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2011-11-05T22:06:00.003+11:00

Okay, I've done 5 MAM exam1s today, making that a total of 10! I only lost like 5 marks in 2008 VCAA, which is good. I need to lose LESS though, I don't know why, even though I was not initially aiming for so high, every time I look at the VCAA statistics, I just see what it took last year for kids to get A+, and that was losing MAXIMUM 3 marks for exam1, SHIET.

Enough for today,

tomorrow I'm planning to work on MAM exam 2, and also MAF exam 2. Man, I'm worried about MAF, I know I did okay in the exam1, BUT OMG, I am actually, REALLY bad at exam 2. Like, so many silly mistakes WHICH I CANNOT AFFORD :(

And I went on ATARCALC today, and I don't know, for some reason I'm being really positive or something, I think I might be able to get more than a 30 for BM, that is if time allows me to study LOLOL, I know it's up to me, but 3 exams in 3 consecutive days, and BM being the last one - time is pretty tight.

I'm still not sure about EL though, my SAC marks are like B, which is SHIT. I don't know if I can ace the exam tbh, I'm scared :( sadface. Hopefully. I don't know, going to be so disappointed, if I fk up, and my ATAR really does go below 90..

I read back on a few blog posts this morning, I've been mentioning school SO MUCH recently. And I look like I go between periods of depression and then periods of normality.. mood swings? hahaha, that's actually scary.

Okay, time to write letters and play picture puzzle with Azri LOL

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2011-11-05T20:16:00.003+11:00

I've done like 8 MAM exam 1s. I don't know if that is a lot, but for me, it is. I actually never had to do practice exams by myself - last year, I never did them for Chinese apart from in Chinese class and Chinese School class.

I didn't have many midyears or anything, and studying, I guess that term is quite unfamiliar to me.

I decided, having done 8 MAM exam 1s, I'd done enough, and moved onto VCAA past exams. Oh my, 28/40, first question 2 marks gone because I FOR SOME UNKNOWN REASON, thought it was the product rule, when it was OBVIOUSLY the quotient rule, z.

I never corrected myself and stuff in the practice exams, I don't know why, mostly because I'd done those exams in tutor class before, and I had to write the answers in a separate book, and the answers were readily available to me. So, this was the first exam I'd actually done without any sort of help - of course, at times I wanted to just grab my bound reference or my exercise book or the CAS, but I refrained myself from doing so. 70%, hmm.